Ignored

At what point, would you say, one should demand attention? I dislike being the center of attention very much, and the more people there are, the more I dislike it. But I can't really deny the fact that I, like everyone else in this world, want SOME attention when I am around other people. Every now and then you just want to be left alone, but you can't just be left alone ALL the time because then you would never speak and you would probably get depressed and your little world would spiral out of control and no one would even know because you're just that wallflower over there. Maybe I'm speaking from personal experience. But believe it or not, as shy as I am, I DO like attention. In moderation. But to ask for it would be selfish, right? I wish I knew.

Tonight Stephanie and I went to Cincinnati. We didn't tell the Cincinnati people that we were going to visit them. It was going to be a surprise. Maybe when you're caught off-guard because you're surprised, you forget how to socially interact and then you ignore the person who did the surprising. Is that valid? Stephanie doesn't think so.

But when you feel really terrible afterward about how I drove all that way to surprise you and then you ignored me, you say you're sorry. And then, what if I forgive you? What would you say then? I guess we'll find out when you text me back.

But I don't need your attention to know that I'm loved, and I'm not going to demand it either. So trust me when I tell you it's all good and that I forgive you. You'll have second chances and third chances and fiftieth chances and a hundred and twentieth chances. Besides, you can't bring me down THAT easily ;)
God bless.