Laziness

I want everyone reading this to know that I wrote it about a week ago and was too lazy to ever finish or edit it:


Today's prompt from 365 Days of Writing Prompts is called Breakdown: "Tell us about a habit you'd like to break. Is there any way it can play a positive role in your life?"

Yes! I do. My roommate would probably say it is Candy Crush, but I would say it's a bigger habit than that: it's laziness.

The only possible positive role my habit of laziness may have in my life is it keeps me from over-working myself. On the spectrum, I definitely lean more toward not doing enough than doing too much. And maybe that's a good thing. Maybe.

I knew getting an iPhone would doom me, yet here I am. Thank goodness I was smart enough not to download the facebook app. But I was foolish enough to download Candy Crush and other time-sucking games.

I play them under the guise of relaxing my brain, especially after a long day of work. I just need to wind down, I tell myself. Texting is suddenly faster (and funner) now, too, so I've been doing a lot more of that as well.

But I can't blame my sin on my phone, now can I? No, I had the same problem years before I ever got my first cell phone. My whole life has been spent in front of the computer screen. My whole life I have whined, "I'm bored!" and when my mom would suggest something useful I could do, I'd resolve to just stay bored rather than exert myself in anything less than super fun.

Little has changed.

In school I've been a procrastinator. At work, I love payday and I love clocking out. I avoid doing my chores. I would rather buy junk food than cook. I rarely practice bassoon even though I'm still actively playing.

When does the cycle end? How do I force myself off the couch? How do I muster energy from nothing? How do I muster motivation?